SO SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO SAD ACTUALLY, SO BORING AND MANY OTHERS SO..............
I'M SO SAD THAT I'M GOING BACK TO SHAH ALAM AGAIN...........
HUHUHUHU.............
IT'S ABOUT A WEEK I'VE BEEN KUCHING HERE........
CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS AND ENJOY THE HOLIDAY..........
BUT THEN I'VE TO GO BACK TO SHAH ALAM............

A WEEK HOLIDAY DOESN'T ENOUGH FOR ME TO ENJOY EVERYTHING...........
AND NOW I'M STILL IN THE MOOD OF HOLIDAY AND YET A TIME FOR ME TO RUN AWAY FROM MY EVERY RUTINE..........
OOOOOOOO GOD GIVE ME PEACE IN MY HEART............
MAKE ME AS YOUR INSTRUMENT OF PEACE BECAUSE I NEED THOSE KIND OF FEELING TO FACES WHATEVER COMES TO ME AFTERWARD..........
LOOKING FORWARD TO GOING BACK TO KUCHING AGAIN............

DO MAKE THE TIME RUNNING FASTER GOD CAUSE I'M SICK ENOUGH TO BE AT SHAH ALAM THERE...........
HUHUHUHUHU.......
AND NOW I'M SO SAD TO LEAVE KUCHING, TO LEAVE EVERYTHING AND TO LEAVE THE MOMENT OF TIME BEING TOGETHER WITH THE LOVED ONE.............
ARGH.................
I FEEL SO SAD WHEN I'M THINKING OF THIS.............
I NEED TO BE COOL ACTUALLY SINCE WHEN I GET THERE I HAVE MANY WORKS TO SETTLE UP.........
ANYWHERE I HOPE I CAN DO IT AND CAN MAKE IT FOR THIS FEW MONTH MORE.............

SINU ENDAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SINU NDAR ATI KU SARITU. KU CUBA ENJOY DIRI MPU TAPI NDA ULIH. SEMA JAKU BARU PULAI ARI MEDA WAYANG NGAU GENG KU. BLOG TUK GAK NYADI TEMPAT KU MENGADU DAH NYAK....
APALAH NASIB KU KAN.....

BAKANI LA CARA KU KA NGUBAH KELEMAHAN DIRI KU ATAU AKU PERLU JADI DIRI SENDIRI NDA IBOH KIRUH KE PENDAPAT ORANG KAN....
KU CUBA SEDAYA UPAYA KU DAH..... TAPI TETAP GAK KELEMAHAN NGAU KETAKSEMPURNAAN AKU YANG TIMBUL....
APA GIK MEMANG LA SEDIH BILA KITAI NGASAI KE ORANG CUBA KA MINTA TOLONG DAN BERHARAP NGAU KITAI DAN KITAI CUBA KA NULONG TAPI NDA ULIH...
KENI LAH KAN NTI NAMA YA DAH NDA ULIH DAN AKU NDA SEPERTI YANG DIJANGKAKAN......

NAMA!!! SALAH AKU GAK NYAK KA???????????
KADANG AKU RASA KELEMAHAN AKU DAN KETIDAKSEMPURNAAN AKU DAH OVERSHADOW DIRI KU EMPU... LABAN AKU PUN TURUT BERUNDING DALAM ATI YANG ORANG NYAK NGARAP KE AKU NYADI BAKA YANG SEPERTI YA KA, ULIH YA BERGANTUNG NGAU AND MACAM-MACAM GIK LA...... DAH NYAK AKU NEMU AKU UKAI ORANG DALAM CRITERIA NYAK.... SO APA GIK LA MEMANG LA KU PIKIR MESTI YA TUK KECEWA LABAN AKU NDA BAKA UTAI KE DI ARAP KA YA.....

TAPI KATI LA KU ULIH NGUBAH UTAI NYAK KAN....
LABAN KEMAMPUAN KU MEMANG SETAKAT NYAK.....
TAPI APA LA SALAH ORANG NYAK TERIMA KU SEADANYA......
MEMANG AKU NGAKU PERKARA NYAK BAH..... AKU UKAI ORANG KAYA YANG ULIH SENTIASA NULONG BILA MAYA YA TUSAH TAPI NDA ULIH KA YA NIPU MIMIT ANANG KELALU NAMPAK KA KELEMAHAN KU NYAK BA MATA YA....
HAI..... ENTAH LA.... MUNGKIN KETEGAL NYAK LA ORANG YA BATAK ASUR KOT.....

YA LAH AKU NDA SEMPURNA BA MATA YA......
TAPI KENI-KENI PUN AKU NEMU KELEMAHAN NGAU KETIDAKSEMPURAAN AKU NYAK AKU TETAP NDA ULIH NGUBAH PERKARA NYAK...........
ULIH MEMANG LA BISI KEMUNGKINAN TAPI MUNGKIN AMBI MASA............

BAH NDA KAN AKU JAK YANG PERLU NITIH KA REQUIREMENT YA KAN........
KATI KE REQUIREMENT AKU NGAGAI YA....
KADA YA ULIH NITIH KE............
TAPI NADAI YA KALA BERUNDING UTAI NYAK KALI........
INGAT KEDIRI EMPU JAK............
NADAI HAL AKU HARAP AKU ULIH HANDLE PERKARA TUK...........
LENYAU LA ATI KU KE SINU TUK.........
KADANG ASAI KE NDA ULIH BERTAHAN GIK DAH.........

LATE ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!

IT’S LATE ALREADY BUT YET I STILL SEAT IN MY DESK................
I TRY TO FINISH UP MY WORK AND SEARCH FOR THE ARTICLE THAT RELATED TO MY ASSIGNMENT BUT THEN I CAN’T FIND IT...............
AND NOW I’M THINKING OF TO STOP DOING IT BECAUSE LATE ALRAEDY AND I NEED TO SLEEP............
EVERYBOBY IN THIS HOUSE IS SLEEP ALREADY INSTEAD OF ME..............
I’M SO HARDWORKING ISN’T IT????????????
NOT SO I GUESS...............
HUH TIRED ALREADY.............
JUST WANTED TO WRITE A LITTLE IN MY BLOG BEFORE I SLEEP THEN................
OK LA...........
I NEED TO REST MYSELF...........
RATHER THAN NOTHING TO DO...................

TO LOVED OR TO BE LOVED?????????

TO LOVED OR TE BE LOVED????????
WHICH ONE IS MUCH MORE BETTER?????????????
I PREFERED TO BE LOVED BY OTHERS AND I’M SICK OF TO LOVED. SEEMS IT’S USUALLY END UP WITH HURTING ME THEN. NOW I’M HOPING FOR BEING LOVED BY OTHERS. HOPE THAT I CAN FIND ONE SOON.
HAHAHAHAHAHA..........
BUT LOVED WILL NEVER COME IF YOU NOT SEARCHING FOR IT I GUESS..................
BUT IT MATTER OF TIME THAT MAKES YOU TO FIND A LOVE AND TO FALL FOR THE LOVE...........
BUT OTHERS SAY LOVE WILL COME TO YOU............
IS THAT RIGHT AH????????
HOW COME LOVE COMES TO YOU IF YOU NOT SEARCHING FOR IT RIGHT??????????
HAHAHAHAHA..........
QUITE NONSENSE LA..................
WHATEVER LA............
WHAT I KNOW LOVE IS HAPPINESS AND JOY WHEN IT’S MEANINGFUL TO ANYBODY WHO FALLS IN LOVE BUT IT CAN HURT TOO WHEN SOMEONE WHO YOU LOVED NOT APPRECIATE IT LIKE YOU DID...........
HEHEHEHEHEHEHE............
THAT MY OPINION WITH NO HURT OTHERS FEELING............

NOTHING MUCH TO DO!!

I’M FREE.........
FREE FROM GOING TO CLASS FOR THIS FEW DAYS......
BUT EVERBODY WENT BACK HOME EXCEPT ME AND ONE OF MY FRIENDS ALSO FROM SARAWAK.......
BUT THEN I’M STAY ALONE ALSO CAUSE MY FRIEND DOING HER PART TIME JOB ON THE DAY AND ONLY COME BACK AT NIGHT...........
PITY ON ME RIGHT............
NEVER MIND THAT WHAT WE CALLED THE DAY OF BEING ALONE.............
BUT I ALWAYS BE ALONE AT KUCHING AS WELL.....
AND I’M GET USED TO IT................
HAHAHAHAHA...............
WHAT HAPPEN AFTER I’M WORKING SOON AHH..........
THAT TIME PROBABLY I’LL BE ALONE AGAIN AND FOR MUCH TIME TOO I GUESS...................

SCARED!!! WORRIED!!! EVERTHING!!!!!!

I JUST TEST MY ENGLISH LEVEL AND I WANTED O KNOW TO WHICH LEVEL MY ENGLISH IS. TOO SCARED OF IT SINCE THE RESULT WAS NOT THAT GOOD. NOW I’M GETTING WORRIED ALREADY ON HOW CAN I TEACH ENGLISH AND AM I CAPABLE ENOUGH TO DO SO. I’M NOT SAYING THAT I’M NOT CONFIDENT WITH MYSELF BUT THE REALITY IS I NEED TO BE GOOD FIRST IN THIS SUBJECT THEN I CAN TEACH OTHERS RIGHT.........

FOR THE TIME BEING I TRY MY BEST TO IMPROVE IT AND HOPE THAT I’M NOT GIVING UP TO DO SO. I BELIEVE EVERYBODY CAN DO IT BUT THERE MUST BE HARD WORK TO WORK ON ITS. IT RELY ON THE MATTER OF OURSELF TO MAKE IT REAL RIGHT....................

OOOOOOOOO...............
GOD DO BLESS MY WISHES TO BE GOOD IN THIS MATTER....................

CANNOT WAIT FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT BEEN A WHILE I HAVEN’T WRITE IN MY BLOG. I’M QUITE BUZY WITH MY WORKS AND THESE BUZINESS SOMETIMES MAKE ME SICK OF IT. I NEED TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS KIND OF ROUTINES AND MAKES SPACES OF TIME FOR ME TO ENJOY MYSELF AND FOR ME TO RELAX MY MIND AND SOUL PROBABLY. PERHAPS I NEED TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT. BUT AS LONG AS I’M HERE I DON’T HAVE ANY IDEA TO DO WHAT SINCE I’M NOT FAMILIAR WITH THIS AREA. UNLESS IF I’M AT KUCHING I KNOW WHAT SORT OF THING THAT I CAN DO.

I CANNOT WAIT FOR GOING BACK THIS TIME. OOO............ GOD DOES MAKE TIME RUNNING FASTER. I CANNOT WAIT TO GOING BACK FOR CHRISTMAS EVE EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT US (MY FAMILY & I) NOT REALLY CELEBRATE THIS FESTIVAL. FOR ME THIS IS THE TIME FOR ME STAY AT MY HOME AND GO OUT SOMETIMES WITH NOTHING MUCH TO THINK OF.

OOOOOOOO.......... I NEED TO FREE MY MIND TO THINK OF MANY SORTS OF THING LIKE STUDYING, WORKING ON MY ASSIGNMENT AND MANY OTHERS. BUT THEN I CAN’T DO SO....... SINCE I NEED TO DO THOSE WORK FOR ME TO ACCOMPLISH MY DP COURSE AND IT JUST A MATTER OF TIME, A ONE YEAR TIME FOR ME TO FINISH THIS COURSE.